b4 i was a mom!

Before I was a mom I never tripped over toys or forgot words to a lullably.

I didn't worry whether or not my plants were poisonous.

I never thought about immunizations.

Before I was a mom I had never been puked on, pooped on, chewed on, peed on. I had complete control of my mind and thoughts.

I slept all night.

Before I was a mom I never held down a screaming child so doctors could do tests, or give shots.

I never looked into teary eyes and cried.

I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.

I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep.

Before I was a mom I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to put it down.

I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I couldn't stop the hurt.

I never knew that something so small could affect my life so much.

I never knew I could love someone so much.

I never knew I would love being a mom.

Before I was a mom I didn't know the feeling of  having my heart outside my body.

I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby.

I didn't know that bond between a mother and her child.

I didn't know that something so small could make me feel so important or happy.

Before I was a mom I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay.

I had never known the warmth, the joy, the love the heartache, the wonderment or the satisfaction of being a mom.

I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much before I was a mom.

Today is a NEW day...

Yesterday was a horrible day for me, ugh, I went form a angry Amy, to a negative Naomi which by the way is so not cute, my grandmother has always told me "be as good as u look" yesterday my appearance was really cute lol from head to toe, I was trying so hard to make my attitude match my appearance but it didn't work! Today is a new day, and I'm trying so hard to be a positive Pearryn =)

p.s. Happy Birthday to my oldest sister Erica aka Auntie E, love you bz!

funny how things work, be careful what you wish for!

when you have something or someone and you lose them or it, and you feel like your world isn't complete without it or that person, then you get it or them back (LOL) and it just isn't the same, what are you to do next?!?!?!?

I would only be so lucky...

To be able to work with Matthew Rolston would be a blessing, his work is truly amazing. I feel like he stands out from other photographers because to him being a photographer is more than just getting the job done and standing behind the lens snapping, there is more to it then just the "camera and the lighting" he captures art, he tells a story through his images, and he loves to take risk! Man oh man how wonderful it would be just to grace his presene, it would be a extra bonus to be able to work with him, hey thats what dreams are for, right?! 

check out more of his work here -> http://www.matthewrolston.com/800x600/

me likey...

"I think we all wish we could erase some dark times in our lives. But all of life's experiences, bad or good, make you who you are. Erasing any of life's experiences would be a great mistake" - Luis Miguel

September 28th 2007 @4:14am

3 years ago today the Lord blessed me with a beautiful healthy baby girl, she is gifted, talented, smart, and amazing, because of her I'm the best women/mother I can be, she is literally my EVERYTHING!!! I love you Pearryn smearryn, Happy Birthday baby girl......

the most beautiful, wonderful, BIGGEST BLESSING the Lord has given me!